decisions to make

I know it has been a long time since I have posted anything.  There has been a lot happening in my life since September.  
My baby, my last child, turned 1.  It about broke my heart.  I am so happy to see her growing but I am begging her to slow down a little. Isn't she a doll?

I just love her sweet chubby cheeks.   

My poor little family went through some very hard personal times through the last of September and into November.  Thankfully, by the grace of God, we came through them.  In that process, I decided that it was time for me to go out into the "real world" and take on a full time job.  I have been working since November 14th at our local Chamber of Commerce.  I do a little bit of everything but my official title is Accounting Associate.  I enjoy it but some days I really miss being at home.

My other two kiddos are adjusting well to the pressures of school and now daycare.  For the most part, anyway.

I had this conversation with my 7 year old the other day.

kale: mommy, did you have a job before this one you have now?
me: no buddy I stayed home with you.
kale: what about that picture thing?
me: no that was just for fun. would you like it if I had a job taking pictures?
kale: oh yeah! Then you could be home with me again.

sigh....
 
Now, I am starting to reconsider the whole working full time thing.  We have all been sick since Christmas and Kale has been asking me to come back to staying at home.  He misses his mommy being there after he gets off of school.  It is so hard to leave the new job I love but I have to think of more than me.  I am asking myself more and more, "what is best for them?"


That being said, I am considering starting my photography business again AND working on my scrapbooking designs more consistently.  There may be new freebies, actions, storyboards and scrapbook templates in the near future.  
Keep me in mind as I make a very big and very important decision within the next couple of weeks.